defining life in MY own way..

The Everlasting Journey

2010-03-06T07:17:00.009+05:30

The magic in your smile is still there,

which had hypnotised me a year ago.

Your lips has the same deep ecstasy

which had always lured me while being with you.

Here I stand, searching in your tiny little eyes

the feeling which I had longed for ages ago.

Thoughts keep rushing through the nerves of my brain

refreshing memories of the past and analyzing the present.

Feeling sorry for those insane hours didn't require any mention

as you had forgiven me, your heart gave such a big donation.

Still, things would have been a little different

If on that day, I had not lost my patience.

But considering we are just earth bound humans,

Some blunders can be neglected even in this charming game.

Perhaps that's why you are still with me,

and we've met at a surprising moment.

This meeting with you, has showed me love's another face,

that its intoxicating feeling never gets faded.

No matter how far we remain and how seldom we talk,

the feeling deep inside always remains alive, although quite.

Just an hour with you was enough to wake it up again

as it spoke to me, "You are in love with her, you insane."

An Evening Walk

2010-01-23T09:12:00.006+05:30

Walking down the road

on an autumn evening

with you beside me

was a soothing feeling.

As usual you were continuously speaking,

while I enjoyed just the listening.

Still something was missing,

something was lacking.

I tried to figure it out,

I saw your smile, your beautiful hair,

it was as pleasant as a celestial glare.

Everything around me was beautiful and fine

and I couldn't understand this incompletness of mine.

Then suddenly it started pouring in,

and I realised the missing thing.

You came close to me and clinched my arms,

I felt the intimacy, within your soft grasp.

That day I felt the magic of your lovely closeness,

It will always remain fresh, as a sweet fragrance.

Forever to Stay..

2009-10-07T16:59:00.005+05:30

People come and people go,

some give happiness, and some becomes foe.

While some gives nothing, because they are to stay,

without any condition or even the slightest hesitate.

They make you feel complete, in a very special way,

just like mild rain on a lovely day.

Their heart becomes a river and you become a boat,

depending on whom, your life can easily float.

And their thoughts, you feel like cool breeze,

which can be touched when you r at peace.

All are not lucky to find someone like this,

and you are blessed if you had known him with ease,

So dont control your feelings and say what u want to say,

to make it sure that he's forever to stay.

Coz u may not be lucky twice in a life,

to find someone like him in days of mighty strife..

THE INVISIBLE

2009-10-03T22:53:00.003+05:30

Invisible is this force that brought us together,

in this journey of life where each person does matter.

And you have come just in the nick of time,

when I needed someone to let me show the path divine.

Flowing like a river are my thoughts pure,

There's no one like you, I'm quite sure.

I love to talk and spend time with you,

something like this will happen, I never knew.

Invisible is this bond that we share,

of deep feelings which we both care.

As the most beautiful things in life remain unseen,

they can only be felt, by a heart serene..

To THE ALMIGHTY

2009-10-01T19:56:00.009+05:30

A doubtful mind, and a gloomy heart,
desperately finding peace, no matter I've to go how far.
Seeking the answers was not an easy task,
until I saw You, within my sacred heart.

It's in the secret knowledge that I FIND you,
giving all my answers and clearing all my doubts.
It's in the innocence of a child that I SEE you,
bringing joy coz once I was like him too.
It's in the love of my parents that I FEEL you,
thus making me realize I'm ur son too.

And now, I can see you in everything around me,
making this world as beautiful as it could be.
Goodness can be seen in everyone you have created,
their imperfection are only the proof of their being humans.
Today I'm in love with all of this humanity,
I thank u, my lord for this blessing being bestowed on me

मेरे हमराही

2009-10-01T19:44:00.012+05:30

जब कुछ पाने की इच्छा छोड़ दी थी हमने, तभी तुमको पाया है,

दुनिया की इस तेज़ धूप मे, तुम्हारा साथ एक घना छाया है.

कुछ बातें कहते नही है हम, पर तुम इतना जान लो,

तुमने छूवा है दिल को ऐसे, अब तक नही कर पाया था कोई जैसे.

दोस्तों का साथ छोड़ चला था मैं, मैने तो ये मान लिया था,

मिलता यहाँ बस धोखा है, जो उम्मीद करता यहाँ, बस रोता है.

डर लगता था किसी पर ऐतबार करने से,

इसीलिए खुद को अलग कर रखा था अब तक ऐसे.

मगर तुमने फिर से उम्मीद का दिया जलाया है,

मैं यहाँ अकेला नही, मुझे ये तुम्ही ने बताया है.

वादें तो तोड़ती रहती है दुनिया, हम बस इतना कहेंगे,

जब तक चाहोगे तुम, हम तुम्हारा साथ देंगे.

जब कभी लगे की अकेले हो तुम, ज़रा नज़रें घुमा लेना,

हमे अपने साथ ही खड़ा पाओगे, हमारा हाथ थाम लेना.

THE DAWN

2009-10-01T19:11:00.002+05:30

Swimming alone in this deep blue sea,

feeling confident there's no one here except me.

Admitting myself in this solitude, with my thoughts bizarre,

with no one around who can get to me near.

Getting up after this horrified dream,

I found you my dear, online before dawn, at 2:30 !!!!!

Your talk had the warmth of friendliness,

it made me comfortable nd relieved me from my lonliness.

Those 4 hours passed so easily,

as I've been knowing you since eternity.

Then days passed, and our friendship grew,

carrying the purity of leaf having droplets of dew.

As I was about to believe, goodness doesn't exist over here,

you reinstated my faith, and showed the goodness's hidden face.

And now I don't want anything from you my dear,

I'm happy just knowing that I'm not alone over here..

Incomplete without YOU

2009-05-24T07:45:00.022+05:30

Sometimes not ending the life becomes the hardest task

when I sleep every night keeping her in my heart.

I wake up every morning just to realize she's not here anymore,

not knowing when I'll see her as before.

When I feel that the days have now changed,

it's time to see how much strength my love has.

Still I choose the spiky path, and decide to live,

trying to fight every lonely moment,

and to endure every little pain,

Diverging myself to the worldly affairs,

though they have no comparison with her being here.

And deep inside I know,

I won't see a thing as beautiful as her smile,

and nothing can give me the warmth of her closeness.

I won't feel anything as pure as her divine love,

and can't take a thing as sharp as her unforgettable glare,

There's nothing as soft as her hands' grip,

and nothing as intimate as the lovable hug she gives.

Still not knowing when will she come,

living a life without her will be hard in times to come.

And not ending it will be a sign of faith,

which I've learnt upon my love to have.

WHY...

2009-05-21T14:20:00.015+05:30

Why I always feel the sting so acute,

of the harm that's been done to you..

Why does my heart aches,

when I remember the pains you've gone through..

Why does every night my eyes become wet,

as I realize I can't change the past for you..

Why does my peace of mind goes,

when I realize you have some problem you can't cope up with..

Why there's a belief that someday a miracle will happen,

that will mitigate all your pains..

Why every time I feel you right beside me,

looking at me and smiling with me..

Why does my heart say, let her go,

if it brings a smile on your face..

Why I always know what you feel,

and always feel what you endure..

May be because I'm not like 'those few' you've met before,

May be because I'm different, coz I'm in love with you..

My Last Hope

2009-05-13T09:05:00.009+05:30

You have been my only divine wish,

someday it'll get fulfilled.

I'll too be lucky enough,

to have you with me, till enternity.

I'm sure an angel you are,

just like my guiding star.

Always caring and supporting me,

I'm thankful for this blessing bestowed on me.

But that's not going to heal me sweetheart,

without your love, I'll still remain a soul cleaved apart.

However much I try, I can't stop loving you,

but I don't want a pity from you.

The memories can never be erased,

and this tiny hope always remains.

Always telling my true feelings will get rewarded,

by getting your love, pure and sacred.

Saving me from the creature I've become,

with your love, I'll be a living spirit again.

The TWELFTH

2009-05-12T04:08:00.007+05:30

Today is again that special day,

when I thought you'll always make my day.

Now you think that was a mistake,

while I believe that was my best display.

It'll always be my sacred day,

but I won't wish you today,

Coz every time I had done this before,

you had been so numb and cold.

And now I've finally lost to you,

It's a promise I'll never bother you.

Now I won't make you remember this day,

nor will I share my feelings for today.

Still I'll wait for you forever,

even if you are miles away.

The Unsaid..

2009-05-11T17:54:00.009+05:30

Every night when I go to sleep

I feel a knife into my chest being stabbed deep.

At that time my heart makes just one wish,

that it rips my body, making it a cold thing.

Starting from my chest,

slowly moving down to my belly and to my legs.

Tearing my flesh and shedding all my blood,

so that I may not live another wounded day.

That will be my happiest moment

coz it'll make me free of all my misery and pain.

But that beautiful day never comes,

and I'm always left with my tears alone.

Hiding behind every fake smile,

and waiting for yet another heartbroken night..

Today she goes..

2009-05-01T21:34:00.001+05:30

Today you go, while my heart cries,

tears of which will come every now and then

Each reminding of every second,

which I've spend with you till then.

I already miss you so much,

but don't know what to say.

Today I'm afraid of tomorrow,

how will I live without your making my day.

Through all these days, if I don't call you,

please think that I miss you so much,

That I'm unable to speak,

still wanting you to call me.

If I don't send you mails,

be sure every time I've tried,

But with tears filled eyes,

couldn't find words which could express how I felt.

And if I'll ever be rude to you,

please understand that I'm sad coz I'm not with you.

But during all these times, I'll still be here

loving you and waiting for you,

Praying to God, for your happiness,

and our togetherness.

It's not easy..

2009-04-05T23:54:00.002+05:30

It's not easy to just let her go,

when you want to be with her more and more.

And now here I stand in confusion,

still wondering what will be our destination.

Why I always have to wait patiently for things to change,

not even sure whether it'll be for betterment.

Still this wonderful hope never dies,

this is the life which I live.

It's one of the toughest times in my life,

when I'm finding it hard to fight.

Why can't I hold my breath and everything comes to still,

and I can feel her sweet fragrance at my will.

Perhaps this separation is also a part of splendid game,

in which both plays, still both have a win.

JUST THE END OF START

2009-04-02T20:58:00.001+05:30

I had a dream of being with you,

not knowing it'll never be true.

I followed my heart and drifted away,

just believing everything's gonna be ok.

I endured the pain and told lies to her,

just hoping it'll make her feel happier.

But nothing happened as I expected,

I could not get a place as I trusted.

Still I was lucky to find an exquisite angel,

with whom I could find my life worth for living.

I knew this happiness was not gonna last forever,

but had no idea it'll end so sooner.

Now she's about to go, leaving me alone

with sweet memories, which can never be blown.

I wish I could hold her for some more time,

to make her realise, only she's mine.

But I believe your faith always pays,

we'll defenitely meet at some better place.

After which there will be no more seperation,

finally we will have a blissful union.

I LOVE THIS PAIN

2009-03-30T18:04:00.002+05:30

There was a time,when everything was fit n fine

coz you were not mine.

A part of it is still true, coz even now

I'm your's n you're not mine.

My nights have become horrible,my dreams changed

from walking hand in hand to your's saying I'm not your man.

But I'm in love with this intoxicating pain,

it's more beautiful than the lovers' kissing game.

I don't wanna complain, I don't wanna explain

why it's more exhilarant than taking your lover's name.

My eyes have not yet dried,

tears still remaining in them.

For the first time they're blessed,

shedding tears in her name.

I don't want it to stop, I don't want it to end

it has been a lifetime,since I've got such a luscious pain.

And now it's more than just fit n fine,

it's the most charismatic feeling I've experinced in my lifetime.

I just wish from now on,no matter what happens

You always remain only mine.